Thursday, January 01, 2009

Happy New Year

Happy New Year to everyone! I hope that everyone is well and that this new year brings many blessings into your lives. Brit Boy and I spent New Year's Eve here at home with our chips and dips and drinks. We watched the fireworks in London on the television and then toasted in 2009.

This New Year's Day is calmer for me this time around. This is the first one where I have felt less turmoil. You see, my mom passed away on New Year's Day in 2006 and I thought that even though it is a customary day of new beginnings, that I would hate the day forever. On the first anniversary of her passing, it was so hard, but I made it through. Then last year, I started to turn a corner in many ways and it got a bit easier. Well, this year, I am just in a better place inside, so peace came when I wasn't noticing :-) So instead of mourning my mom last night when it turned over to midnight, I rejoiced in the fact that she loved life and she showed me how to live it. I thought about her in ways that I was unable to in all the time since she passed away. And that's okay...and as they say...time does heal and looking within has helped me too. I'm still going to have days when I will cry or even scream because I wish I could pick up the phone and call her when things get rough, and that's normal because I'm human. But today I feel like morning has come into my life a bit more again :-) I love you Mama!

21 comments:

On The Verge said...

Happy New Year, Dori!

Mike Golch said...

Dori,Happy New Year to you and Brit Boy. I can relate to not being able to call you Mom. Both my Parents are Home with God,Dad in 1984 and Mon 2003

Mike Foster said...

Wishing you a happy, healthy, prosperous, and amazing 2009!

peace,
mike
livelife365
Happy New Year!

Elizabeth Harper said...

This was such a sweet post Dori.

I'm so glad that you can celebrate all the ways you still feel connected to your mom.

It's a wonderful tribute, "she loved life and knew how to live it."

I hope 2009 is filled with wonderful gifts for you.

Faris Fakri said...

Hey, didn't know you're in the UK as well. How long have you been living here?

Wishing you a Happy New Year! :-)

Faris

Dieting Talk said...

Hi Dori! Thank you for stopping by my blog wishing me a Happy New Year. I want to wish the same for you - a Happy New Year filled with love, joy, peace, and happiness :)

Miriam

HEALTH NUT WANNABEE MOM said...

Happy New Year Dori! I am sorry about your moms passing and really think that you have a beautiful attitude and memories of her. Death is one of those things I don't know if we get over but we keep going and make them proud. May you and brit boy have a great 2009.

Jenn P. said...

Happy New Year! I hope it is your best one yet!

Jacqueline said...

Dori,
I know your mom must have been a very wonderful and special lady because much of it rubbed off on you.

Peace, joy and happiness in 2009. :-)

Jennifer said...

Happy new year, Dori!

I understand wanting to talk to your mother. It's also good to rejoice in the life that she lived and the parts of her that live on with you.

The Fitness Diva said...

My condolences on losing your Mom.

Glad to hear that you had a great time bringing the New Year in with Brit Boy! :)

Susan Helene Gottfried said...

Happy New Year, Dori!

Glad you're finding your peace at last.

Duni said...

A wonderful and blessed New Year to you too,Dori!

best,

Duni



http://lovelypurses.blogspot.com

Courtney said...

Happy New Year Dori! And I am glad to read that things are getting better for you.

Anne said...

Happy New Year. I am glad you were able to make peace with your mom's passing. It is hard when you lose a loved one on a holiday.

Gypsy at Heart said...

Happy New Year Dori. I'm glad you have found a way to look upon New Years Day with some gladness. Your mother sounds like the kind of person who would have wanted that for you. How do I know? Because of the things you say and the way you write and how you come across. Good for you and continued peace for your mother who surely watches over you.

Mharms said...

Hello Dori! Happy new year to you and to your family!

Dori said...

On The Verge,
Happy New Year to you! :)

Mike,
Happy New Year to you and your family too! It's true Mike, parents are missed always. Hugs to you :)

Mike,
All the best to you and your family for a wonderful New Year too! :)

Elizabeth,
Thanks my friend. I do feel like she left a great example for me. I wish wonderful things for you in 2009 too :)

Faris,
Yep, I've been here nearly three years now. I wish you a Happy New Year too! :-)

Miriam,
Thanks. All the best to you and I look forward to following along with your blog :)

Health Nut Wannabee Mom,
Happy New Year! Thanks for your kind words and I wish all the best to you in 2009 too my friend :)

Jenn P,
Thanks and I wish you all the best of everything in 2009 too! :)

Jacqueline,
You are so kind to say that. And I wish you much peace, joy and happiness in 2009 too :)

Jennifer,
Happy New Year! Yes, we do have to celebrate our loved ones' lives and it does bring peace :)

Fitness Diva,
Thank you Diva. Yep we had a great night. We had our little drinky drink and ate our dips and things. It was great. Happy New Year! :)

Susan,
Happy New Year to you! Thanks friend...yeah peace is growing every day for me :)

Dori said...

Duni,
Thanks and I wish you and wonderful, blessed New Year too! :)

Courtney,
Happy New Year! Yes, I'm feeling a lot better these days :)

Anne,
Happy New Year! Yes, it's hard because the day is highlighted, so it's a challenge to reconcile. But I'm getting on more level ground :)

Gypsy at Heart,
Happy New Year! Yes, she would definitely want me to find peace. I'm glad that I'm able to convey how she was. I always admired how calm she was even in the tough times. Thanks for your sweet words :)

Mharms,
Happy New Year to you and your family too! :)

Mountain Woman said...

Dori,
I can relate to the grief you have for your Mother and how it has tempered with time so that now you are able to celebrate her life. It's been six years this holiday season since my husband was killed and I have come to that point as well where I no longer feel such loss but I can celebrate the joy.
My heart goes out to you and consider yourself hugged.

Dori said...

Mountain Woman,
Thank you my dear friend for the hugs and wonderful words :)